Today is a better day

I heard from my brother today, which makes me feel so much better. He said that he is doing fine, and it that "You can't get a country boy down"

I still worry, but I always will.

Mom got her surgery scheduled, it will be this Friday at 6am. She has to go in at 4:30 for blood work and other tests, as to be expected she is scared about it. We both are. But I just keep telling myself that she will be fine, and that this will make her healthy again.

Please keep my family in your thoughts

On the 6th I received an email from my brother, he is only 21 and a Marine serving in Afghanistan. He almost died twice since the beginning of the year. Right after midnight on the first he was in a convoy and a truck a few trucks ahead of him blew up, luckily everyone made it out ok. . . but then on the 6th something happened and he almost got "blown up by a mortar a couple of times". He lost a close friend that day and had to carry him off the battle field. It is killing me because I haven't heard from him since the that email. . . I am really worried but I can't tell our mother, because I know how much it will upset her and her health isn't the best these days.

Mom (who is only 43) is scheduled for open heart surgery on the 23rd of this month. Her heart beat has been so slow, that the doctors think there is a blockage and they are going to give her a pace-maker. She wore a heart monitor for a week and her heart beat ranged from 32-48. . .the average heart rate is 60-80.

I just feel awful keeping this from her, but she doesn't need to know. . . she needs to stay in the bubble of thinking that he is over there doing nothing. . .just stationed in a quite area. That is what we all were hoping. . . but now I know.

I'm so sorry to go like this, but I am just so worried about them both.

House is turned upside down

We are moving everything in the house around, so no soaping for me for a while. . . although when we are done I will finally have my craft room the way that I want it. I have gotten over the whole "no holes in the new walls" thing, and I plan on having a whole wall of shelves. I will post pics if we ever get it done. . . we are kinda slow on things like that :D

Holiday Cookies

So I opted out of making B&B for the guys in my family and decided that cookies would be better. . . this is my take on the PB Cookies that Bakerella did in her blog.


Peanut Butter Cookies, with Chocolate spooned over and topped with chopped peanuts. The salty sweet combo can not be beat!!

Babies on the brain. . .

So I have been weird the past few weeks, can't sleep. . food makes me nauseous. . . stuff like that. Well this morning while I was trying to sleep Kenny puts this thought in my head "Maybe you are pregnant"

I seriously doubt that I am, but it is a possibility. . . gosh I don't think that we are ready for a baby! I mean with everything going on and I'm always fretting over money. . .even though we don't have to worry. I mean we aren't rich or anything but our bills get paid and we have a little left in the bank. . . but a baby would change all that. Don't get me wrong, I would love to be a mother, but I just don't know if I am "Mother" material. . .and I know that Kenny would make a great Dad.

I just can't get the thought out of my head now. . . and part of me wants it, the loving I want a baby to nurture side. But the other "I live in reality" side is just screaming that there is no way we could handle it with our work schedule.

It would make our mothers happy though. . .lol. . . to "finally" have a grandchild.

If I'm still like this next week I'll get a test. . .now to try not to think about it.

Snowed in, so I'm playing

Since I got snowed in, well iced in really, I'm at home bored out of my mind.

So I started playing around with some M&P soap. And I'm kinda excited about what I made. Pardon the crappy pictures. My camera just has not worked right since I took it to the beach. I promise that everything looks better in real life :) I really need to get a lightbox, and a better camera.

First up is my Sugar Scrub Cubes!
I am really excited about these, and they smell great!
I scented them with Apricot Freesia and wow, I am so loving this scent.
These were made with a combination of Goats Milk soap and Sugar.



They are a new twist on an old favorite, Sugar Scrubs. No more putting your hand in a jar of a sugar slurry and having to worry about cross contaminating the scrub with shower water. Just take one cube into the bath/shower with you, squish it in your hand and lather away. It like a combination of sugar and a lotion like lather that feels great on the skin.

I will follow up with some soaps that I made.

And yes that is my awesome Olive Green Scale, so retro it is cool again :D

w00t! I have mastered the HTML demons!

lol, I'm not good at HTML, I don't claim to be a HTML guru. . . but I think I did a pretty good job re-doing my blog. I was in a stripy-purply mood :D